Man, so many things this week went horribly wrong in so many different ways I could never have anticipated. There were a number of really pleasant surprises, but somehow my mind can only focus on that bad things.

I have this tendency to be really neurotic about stuff that many people would consider to be trivial, and then I brood over and overanalyze what I could have done instead for days or even weeks depending on how much control I could have had over the situation that I did not properly exercise. And then I start categorizing my days into ‘good days’ and ‘bad days’ based on if I can remember more good or bad things happening that day (which vary in intensity).

I need a paradigm shift or something so I can focus on the positives instead of the negatives, aha. I don’t think this week was really all that bad, considering the things I did correctly, but man, there was a shit ton of things that really ended up…contrary to my expectations. And then I start off the next day feeling like I can’t do anything right lolsob

dramatic sigh

Look on the bright side, Erdgeist. You are fantastic and amazing and smart and talented and superb and fabulous and awesome and wonderful and terrific and swell and will probably do a whole lot of cool things in the future!

yes

hold on to that dream that you don’t know exists yet

c’mon man pull it together

you’re too cool for these shitty thoughts and today’s going to be sexy